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I lost Rufus two weeks ago too, though I sound like a horrible asshole, I got over that the very same day as I do anything else that dies... just not her.  *sigh*  I'm putting the depressing entry into the archives.  I'd rather not tear up everytime I get on DA.  I don't want to bring anyone else down either. Jake's gone for the week, I told him to go to Ohio with his brother and sister-in-law.  It'll help him realize there's more to things than work and videogames, maybe he can understand my need to do things completely unplanned better.  Either way, this gives me time to not worry about calling him every night when he gets off work to do t

I loved my baby, and I still do.  It hurts so much to think about her, even when I think of happy times where i just held her and carried her around the house in my arms kissing the top of her head.  It hurts.  It hurts beyond any measure of hell.  I still remember when she used to cry when I had to leave her at night to go to bed.  I remember sitting by her bed, just sitting there comforting her until she finally drifted off to sleep.  It's hard to ignore this fucking gaping heart shaped hole and think of the future.  It's hard to even believe that there can be a future void of her presence.  When I wake up from my dreams, and realize that I